My name is Charlotte Southall I'm 32 and I live in Lytham.
I am currently 8 months sober, when I set out on this journey, I had no idea how completely life changing this time would be for me. I genuinely feel better mentally and physically than I ever have before.
For the past few years, I have been toying with the idea of giving up alcohol knowing deep down that it did not agree with me and almost always resulted in negative consequences. I always wanted to fight against this, prove myself and everyone else wrong, show people that I was in control I wanted to be normal. I never managed to stay sober for that long. Yes I stopped, I did weeks and months without drinking but for me it was being able to stay stopped that was the problem. When I drank there was no off button. It was like playing a game of Russian roulette would it be a glass of wine or a 3 bender?
Alcohol had always been there to give me that false sense of confidence - when on a night out it gave me the ability to speak to people, if I didn’t feel comfortable and nice in my new outfit, alcohol would make me feel good again. I spent so much time burying myself beneath alcohol I lost view of who I really was.
8 months into my sober journey and I am so proud of myself for how far Iv come and how much I have learnt about myself. I don’t need to drink anymore and in fact one of the hardest pills to swallow was actually hearing from my friends that they preferred me when I wasn’t drinking, that became a driving force motivating me to continue.
If anyone else out there is debating whether they have a problem with alcohol, the fact you're even questioning this suggests you probably do. Don’t waste your time trying to win this because you never will and there is so much peace and happiness waiting when you finally decide to wave goodbye to the false, manipulative friend that is alcohol! I know this is only the very start of my journey and I have a long way to go but instead of having a fear about a life without alcohol I’m now excited to embrace this new way.
For me joining Bee Sober as an ambassador was about helping others to see that there is life beyond drinking and getting sober will really give you a life beyond your wildest dreams.